Jiah Khan’s Six-Page Suicide Note Revealed

Jiah Khan's Suicide NoteJiah Khan’s mother Rabiya Khan has made an alleged suicide note public, in which, Jiah has named Aditya Pancholi’s son Suraj and blamed their troubled-romance for all her depression and personal woes. Meanwhile Mumbai Police has arrested Suraj Pancholi for abetting Jiah Khan’s suicide.

Rabiya Khan in an open letter stated:

Suraj Pancholi Arrested“Some sections of the media and some film industry people are speculating that my daughter Jiah committed suicide because of depression related to her career. However the truth is that it happened only because of the trauma and the abuse she suffered at the hands of Suraj Pancholi and his father Aditya Pancholi. 

This I know from what Jiah shared with her sisters and me and also from this letter written by Jiah herself that I am attaching here with which was found three days later by my younger daughter in a wallet box belonging to Jiah when she was searching for some poems written by Jiah to be read out at her prayer meeting. 

I have decided to make this letter public so that everyone may know the truth behind my daughter’s tragedy. 

Below given is a transcript of Jiah’s handwritten letter:.. I am also attaching the photocopies of the actual handwritten pages of her letter.”

Yours truly 

Rabiya khan.

Scanned Copy of Jiah Khan's suicide note           -2

Here is the verbatim of Jiah Khan’s ‘tell-all’ six page suicide note penned by Jiah before she hung herself:

“ I don’t know how to say this to you but I might as well now as I have nothing to lose. I’ve already lost everything. If you’re reading this I might have already left or about to leave. I am broken inside. You may not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point where I lost myself in loving you. Yet you tortured me everyday. These days I see no light I wake up not wanting to wake up. There was a time I saw my life with you, a future with you. But you shattered my dreams. I feel dead inside. I’ve never given so much of myself to someone or cared so much. You returned my love with cheating and lies. It didn’t matter how many gifts I gave you or how beautiful I looked for you. I was scared of getting pregnant but I gave myself completely the pain you have caused me everyday has destroyed every bit of me, destroyed my soul. I can’t eat or sleep or think or function. I am running away from everything. The career is not even worth it anymore. When I first met you I was driven, ambitious and disciplined. Then I fell for you, a love I thought would bring out the best in me. I don’t know why destiny brought us together. After all the pain, the rape, the abuse, the torture I have seen previously I didn’t deserve this. I didn’t see any love or commitment from you. I just became increasingly scared that you would hurt me mentally or physically. Your life was about partying and women. Mine was you and my work. If I stay here I will crave you and miss you. So I am kissing my 10-year career and dreams goodbye. I never told you but I received a message about you. About you cheating on me. I chose to ignore it, decided to trust you. You embarrassed me. I never went out, I never went with anyone else. I am a loyal person. I never met anyone with Karthik I just wanted you to feel how you make me feel constantly. No other woman will give you as much as I did or love you as much as I did. I can write that in my blood. Things were looking up for me here, but is it worth it when you constantly feel the pain of heartbreak when the person you love wants to abuse you or threatens o hit you or cheats on you telling other girls they are beautiful or throws you out of their house when you have no where to go and you’ve come to them out of love or when they lie to your face or they make you chase after them in their car. Or disrespects their family. You never even met my sister. I bought your sister presents. You tore my soul. I have no reason to breathe anymore. All I wanted was love. I did everything for you. I was working for us. But you were never my partner. My future is destroyed my happiness snatched away from me. I always wished the best for you, was ready to invest what little money I had in your betterment. You never appreciated my love, Kicked me in the face. I have no confidence or self esteem left, whatever talent whatever ambition you took it all away. You destroyed my life. It hurt me so much that I waited for you for ten days and you didn’t bother buying me something. The Goa trip was my birthday present but even after you cheated I still spent on you. I aborted our baby when it hurt me deeply. You destroyed my Christmas and my birthday dinner when I came back. When I tried my hardest to make your birthday special. You chose to be away from me on Valentines Day. You promised me once we made it to one year we would get engaged. All you want in life is partying, your women and your selfish motives. All I wanted was you and my happiness you took both away from me. I spent money on you selflessly you would throw in my face. When I would cry for you. I have nothing left in this world to live for after this. I wish you had loved me like I loved you. I dreamt of our future. I dreamt f our success. I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up again. I am nothing. I had everything. I felt so alone even while with you. You made me feel alone and vulnerable. I am so much more than this”.

5 Replies to “Jiah Khan’s Six-Page Suicide Note Revealed”

  1. Anonymous says:

    I know that feeling, it’s horrific deja vu. It’s sad how great people like her over-spend themselves so loosely and then give up.

  2. Soraya says:

    If the mother knew that her daughter was going through depression and was crying for help, why didn’t she help her and got her out of that destructive relationship? That is the role of parents to be a support system to their children, no matter how old they are. To share the reason why her daughter ended her life and said she knew that Jiah was in an abusive relationship is shocking, she stood around and did nothing.
    It is very unfortunate that her family knew what she was going through and didn’t get her the right psychological counseling, she desperately needed. RIP

  3. Sang says:

    Hi jack, would love to have updates on this case on your website.

    Heard this Looser Pancholi guy is behind the bars. he truly deserve this.

  4. Ansh says:

    Who doesnt have breakups?!? The guy is 21 ! just cause he is a guy he needs to be blamed for it? She was a pretty girl with a career…. dont know of her education. If a relationship is not working you always have a choice of walking out! Sad she took such an extreme step but cmon its not entirely the guys fault!!

  5. Beenthere says:

    Who can judge the power of love holding them prisoner? While it’s true she should’ve walked out, she couldn’t have had just toss her heart out the window as casually too. If it came to that, he should’ve broken up with her much early if he had no intention on being serious with her too and her family should’ve been there as a support system as she went thru her chronic depression. Anyone who haven’t been in chronic depression won’t know how damaging it was and how harder than hardest it is to break free from. Everybody has depression at one point, yes, but not everyone has had chronic depression. And while it’s true that it’s seems silly to others how she looked at things and ‘solved’ her problems and how he deserved living life, people shouldn’t underestimate the depression she was having. People in chronic depression see things in a very different perspective. The feeling also is extremely intense. This can happen even as they knew it was wrong and they were thinking illogically. There are two sides of chronically depressed people; the realist and the illogical. Knowing they were thinking or feeling or behaving remarkable deviant from normal could not repress or vanish those depressive oppressive thinking or feeling. The late Jiah might have thought about suicide, but still not had wanted it deep down inside, it became too overwhelming the moment she took her life. Chronic depression is not like a skin wound that got can get treated easily. Often it take a very long time to lose the poison entirely. Without treatment, positive support system and healing environment, one can really end in death. It would have been very difficult for her to break away from her depression since she was a well known person. She was kept thrown into that same situation over and over, without anywhere to turn to.

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